LIFE OUT OF CONTROL??? need advice!?

i dont know what to do anymore or how to deal with it. im a 19 year old college student that is very social im in a fraternity and i am a smart good looking guy. not to be conceited. but all this is a front i hate my life everything is out of control i cannot live at home anymore my dad has threatened my life various times he put a knife to my throat before jus because i stay out late i got kicked out today its horrible. not only that i got kicked out of my university so im going to community college but regardless of what i do i mess up even though im very smart. im in alot of debt i need a job but i have to move out i cant deal with this. but at the same time i put a front as the big social party guy and i jus drink to relieve the pain because im always pretending to be the tough happy guy...please any advice would help i jus needed to vent. thank you.